Well hello there.
Lately I have been having some hard times with myself. I just am stuck in a place right now where I will do ANYTHING to grow up...but at the same time I am scared. I know in my previous post I said something similar to this, but I have been working on it. I am trying to do things that make myself happy and I truly have been better about doing that! Which I must say, I am very glad with the focus I have been putting into my own thoughts/feelings.
Anyways, I think the most important thing for me is the fact that I have been with my boyfriend for so long that I am telling myself in my mind I am ready for the next step, but I know he is not. I am trying to be mature about everything and I find myself at times acting like an idiot, to say the least. I say things that a girl in high school would say to her boyfriend of two months, not someone who is ready to move on and get their life started. Perhaps I should try something different to act differently. It's not that I am not a mature person, but I am just trying to accept everything life is throwing at me. I am just stuck and do not know how to go about it. I don't really have anyone to talk to because I don't think they will understand me. I will just keep focusing on myself because that seems to work the best right now. I just need to start acting like the 22 year old girl I (almost) am.
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