So I started doing my placement hours this week. I was placed in a first grade classroom and truthfully...I really enjoy it! I kind of like first grade better because they know some information already and you can see the building blocks working in their minds as they pick up new information!
I've only gone to the class for two days and I am truly having a great time! Something I was thinking of last night though was the fact that being with children comes so naturally to me. I don't even have to think about what I should do or how I should act. For awhile, I was nervous and kept thinking that maybe it wasn't for me. But I was wrong. This is the job I was meant to do and I am SO excited to get my degree next year.
I have been looking for some substitute teaching jobs or even something with an after school or preschool. I think I need to get my foot in the door somehow. I am just so glad everything is turning out in a great way. I am sure I won't love every single teacher or class I get to work with, but with the right attitude ANYTHING is possible!
Wednesday, October 7, 2015
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Tuesday Lately
I decided to do this post as a way to get my mind off of things. Here it goes!
U p d a t i n g
Right now I am trying to update my room. A few months ago I changed the furniture around and got rid of a lot of things. But one thing I did not touch was my closet...oh dear god it's going to be absolute hell in there! I really need the space though, so I am planning on updating that tomorrow hopefully.
R e m i n d i n g
I am reminding myself that I can only tackle one day at a time. I really need to stop worrying less and enjoying the present more. This is hard for me to understand sometimes! Each day is a gift and I need to cherish it.
N e e d i n g
Hmm...I don't think I technically need it but this weekend is Hallmark's Ornament Debut! I am so excited and have about 4 or 5 ornaments on my list. My local store knows me well so they told me they will place the ones I want aside for me! I need to go over there and drop my list off tomorrow!
W e a r i n g
Well I am laying in bed as I type this so I have on an old baggy t-shirt and some shorts. Ahh, nothing better!
B e i n g
I am being a bit over dramatic and I am trying to get myself in check before I say/do something that will ruin something important in my life. I just need to calm down and accept my life as it is.
U p d a t i n g
Right now I am trying to update my room. A few months ago I changed the furniture around and got rid of a lot of things. But one thing I did not touch was my closet...oh dear god it's going to be absolute hell in there! I really need the space though, so I am planning on updating that tomorrow hopefully.
R e m i n d i n g
I am reminding myself that I can only tackle one day at a time. I really need to stop worrying less and enjoying the present more. This is hard for me to understand sometimes! Each day is a gift and I need to cherish it.
N e e d i n g
Hmm...I don't think I technically need it but this weekend is Hallmark's Ornament Debut! I am so excited and have about 4 or 5 ornaments on my list. My local store knows me well so they told me they will place the ones I want aside for me! I need to go over there and drop my list off tomorrow!
W e a r i n g
Well I am laying in bed as I type this so I have on an old baggy t-shirt and some shorts. Ahh, nothing better!
B e i n g
I am being a bit over dramatic and I am trying to get myself in check before I say/do something that will ruin something important in my life. I just need to calm down and accept my life as it is.
Thank you for reading!
Here are next weeks words:
Completing, Visiting, Repeating, Applauding, Scheduling
Having a hard time
Well hello there.
Lately I have been having some hard times with myself. I just am stuck in a place right now where I will do ANYTHING to grow up...but at the same time I am scared. I know in my previous post I said something similar to this, but I have been working on it. I am trying to do things that make myself happy and I truly have been better about doing that! Which I must say, I am very glad with the focus I have been putting into my own thoughts/feelings.
Anyways, I think the most important thing for me is the fact that I have been with my boyfriend for so long that I am telling myself in my mind I am ready for the next step, but I know he is not. I am trying to be mature about everything and I find myself at times acting like an idiot, to say the least. I say things that a girl in high school would say to her boyfriend of two months, not someone who is ready to move on and get their life started. Perhaps I should try something different to act differently. It's not that I am not a mature person, but I am just trying to accept everything life is throwing at me. I am just stuck and do not know how to go about it. I don't really have anyone to talk to because I don't think they will understand me. I will just keep focusing on myself because that seems to work the best right now. I just need to start acting like the 22 year old girl I (almost) am.
Lately I have been having some hard times with myself. I just am stuck in a place right now where I will do ANYTHING to grow up...but at the same time I am scared. I know in my previous post I said something similar to this, but I have been working on it. I am trying to do things that make myself happy and I truly have been better about doing that! Which I must say, I am very glad with the focus I have been putting into my own thoughts/feelings.
Anyways, I think the most important thing for me is the fact that I have been with my boyfriend for so long that I am telling myself in my mind I am ready for the next step, but I know he is not. I am trying to be mature about everything and I find myself at times acting like an idiot, to say the least. I say things that a girl in high school would say to her boyfriend of two months, not someone who is ready to move on and get their life started. Perhaps I should try something different to act differently. It's not that I am not a mature person, but I am just trying to accept everything life is throwing at me. I am just stuck and do not know how to go about it. I don't really have anyone to talk to because I don't think they will understand me. I will just keep focusing on myself because that seems to work the best right now. I just need to start acting like the 22 year old girl I (almost) am.
Sunday, August 30, 2015
It's Been Awhile...
Hi there. It has been some time since I've last wrote. The past few months have been hard....a lot has gone and and I feel as if I have grown up more now than ever before. I have noticed things changing faster than I've ever imagined; and to be honest...I'm scared. My life has been pretty repetitive the past (almost) six years and the past few months have been a hell of a lot different.
Some of my friends from high school are graduating this year, people are getting married, having children, moving out and away, and here I am just stuck in the same cycle day in and day out. I know that I am the curator of my circumstances but when I think about the future I'm scared. I want to branch out and meet new people...but am I ready for that? I want to think I am but can I live with leaving my family and friends behind? I don't really know, but time will tell. I should be finishing college next year and once I graduate, I don't know what my plan will be. I hope to be starting a new life with Gabe, but each day is tremendously different than the last. Who knows where I will be in one week let alone one year.
I keep telling myself I am ready for something new, but thinking about it makes me want to cry. Sometimes my emotions get the best of me and I don't know how to handle them. I am trying my hardest to work on them and keep them under control (I am doing much better) but I am just flat out scared. Life is truly an amazing experience and I do not want my fears to hold me back from anything. I want to wake up every day and be excited to simply be alive. I am forever grateful for waking up each morning. I just need to realize that with life comes change and there is absolutely NOTHING anyone can do about that. I need to accept it and find a way to adapt with whatever is thrown my way.
Sorry for the rambling, just a lot has been on my mind lately. Talk to you soon.
Love Always,
Melissa xo
Some of my friends from high school are graduating this year, people are getting married, having children, moving out and away, and here I am just stuck in the same cycle day in and day out. I know that I am the curator of my circumstances but when I think about the future I'm scared. I want to branch out and meet new people...but am I ready for that? I want to think I am but can I live with leaving my family and friends behind? I don't really know, but time will tell. I should be finishing college next year and once I graduate, I don't know what my plan will be. I hope to be starting a new life with Gabe, but each day is tremendously different than the last. Who knows where I will be in one week let alone one year.
I keep telling myself I am ready for something new, but thinking about it makes me want to cry. Sometimes my emotions get the best of me and I don't know how to handle them. I am trying my hardest to work on them and keep them under control (I am doing much better) but I am just flat out scared. Life is truly an amazing experience and I do not want my fears to hold me back from anything. I want to wake up every day and be excited to simply be alive. I am forever grateful for waking up each morning. I just need to realize that with life comes change and there is absolutely NOTHING anyone can do about that. I need to accept it and find a way to adapt with whatever is thrown my way.
Sorry for the rambling, just a lot has been on my mind lately. Talk to you soon.
Love Always,
Melissa xo
Sunday, April 26, 2015
Sunday Lately
Okay, well thank goodness this week is over! I am done with my classes and have a small break until summer starts! These past few months have been a whirlwind so having some time off will be nice. I am continuing my post from the blog I found, Designs by Nicolina. It really has some great stuff, especially for a Disney lover like myself :) Well here it goes!
Doing: Right now I am finishing up my final assignment for my class. It is to create a lesson plan and I believe I am finished (yippee!) and just have to turn it in. I also am trying to think of some new ideas for my new "Bowtique" (Info to come later)
Appreciating: I am appreciating life to the fullest. Yesterday a 7.8 magnitude earthquake struck Nepal and caused avalanches in Mount Everest. My friend from high school, Haleigh, was hiking Mount Everest this past week. I was sick to my stomach worried about her has hundreds of trekkers are injured or stuck on the Mountain. We just heard last night that she spoke to her mom and is okay. It's amazing how quickly life can be lost so we MUST appreciate everything!
Designing: Funny it says this! I am trying to design some bows for my new "shop" Melbows Bowtique. I have been watching tutorial videos and scouring Pinterest for ideas. I will have a blog post dedicated to this soon!
Humming: I am not actually humming anything at the moment but I do hear my air conditioner blowing away. It is still in my house as my boyfriend is napping on the couch next to me with my two puppies sleeping peacefully on their pillows. Its been a good morning!
Expecting: Lately I have not been expecting much...I don't mean that in a bad way but something I do is to get my hopes up (a lot!) and it usually sends me into a downward spiral of sadness. I am just trying to take things as they come and roll with whatever life throws at me. I think this is a positive outlook on life and am trying to make it my new motto.
Doing: Right now I am finishing up my final assignment for my class. It is to create a lesson plan and I believe I am finished (yippee!) and just have to turn it in. I also am trying to think of some new ideas for my new "Bowtique" (Info to come later)
Appreciating: I am appreciating life to the fullest. Yesterday a 7.8 magnitude earthquake struck Nepal and caused avalanches in Mount Everest. My friend from high school, Haleigh, was hiking Mount Everest this past week. I was sick to my stomach worried about her has hundreds of trekkers are injured or stuck on the Mountain. We just heard last night that she spoke to her mom and is okay. It's amazing how quickly life can be lost so we MUST appreciate everything!
Designing: Funny it says this! I am trying to design some bows for my new "shop" Melbows Bowtique. I have been watching tutorial videos and scouring Pinterest for ideas. I will have a blog post dedicated to this soon!
Humming: I am not actually humming anything at the moment but I do hear my air conditioner blowing away. It is still in my house as my boyfriend is napping on the couch next to me with my two puppies sleeping peacefully on their pillows. Its been a good morning!
Expecting: Lately I have not been expecting much...I don't mean that in a bad way but something I do is to get my hopes up (a lot!) and it usually sends me into a downward spiral of sadness. I am just trying to take things as they come and roll with whatever life throws at me. I think this is a positive outlook on life and am trying to make it my new motto.
Well thank you for reading! I will be sure to post soon, have a great week ahead!
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Its Been Awhile...
My life has been crazy busy the past month, but I am finally finding time to do the things I love! School ends on Thursday and I am literally SO happy! I am taking two online classes over summer, but at least I can do it from the comfort of my own home.
I found something interesting on a blog, and they call it "Sunday Lately." The blogger picks 4 words and writes how they are relating to her life right at the moment. I am going to try and do this weekly to see how it goes. Let's give it a shot!
Planning: Right now I am planning on how to save money. I have a bunch of huge bills coming up in the next few weeks, so I am trying to limit my spending and try to sell some used things on eBay and such. Hopefully it all works out in my favor!
I found something interesting on a blog, and they call it "Sunday Lately." The blogger picks 4 words and writes how they are relating to her life right at the moment. I am going to try and do this weekly to see how it goes. Let's give it a shot!
Planning: Right now I am planning on how to save money. I have a bunch of huge bills coming up in the next few weeks, so I am trying to limit my spending and try to sell some used things on eBay and such. Hopefully it all works out in my favor!
Loving: I am loving that school is about to end, I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel and I am just looking forward to actually having an "off" day and be able to do some things I enjoy.
Reading: I am not reading anything at the moment, but just picked up at book at Goodwill last night that I plan to start reading this week :)
Feeling: This very moment, I am feeling a bit worried. I am worried about a ticket that I received in October and I took the ticket to a ticket clinic and thought everything went okay, but my mom says when she looked it up online - I owe $330! This definitely does not fit in my saving money plan, so hopefully everything is okay. I am very nervous!
Well that wraps up this weeks "Sunday (not really) it's Tuesday Lately." I enjoyed this! Hopefully it will be something I can do more of in the future.
Monday, March 16, 2015
Hobbies
Some hobbies I truly enjoy are going to the beach, photography, and cooking. Lately, I have felt myself slowly getting away from the things I love the most. I really enjoy photography, and that is something that has gotten away from me completely. I am trying to make promises to myself to get back and do these activities. I find myself so busy, but if I truly enjoy it, why am I not doing it?
I am making a promise to cook something on a weekly basis, go out with my camera and take pictures of the beach, my dogs, or even something in my backyard. Slowly get back into these things. I think if I do this, I will feel at ease and it will give me a chance to be with my own thoughts and relax. Classes are almost over and then I'm taking two summer classes which are only six weeks, so I will have more time to do my favorite things. Heres to making myself happy...cheers!
I am making a promise to cook something on a weekly basis, go out with my camera and take pictures of the beach, my dogs, or even something in my backyard. Slowly get back into these things. I think if I do this, I will feel at ease and it will give me a chance to be with my own thoughts and relax. Classes are almost over and then I'm taking two summer classes which are only six weeks, so I will have more time to do my favorite things. Heres to making myself happy...cheers!
Friday, March 13, 2015
Growing Up
Looking back on how I used to react is so beyond amazing to me. I can't believe I have grown so much in just a few short years. When I get in an argument (mostly work related), I know my limits and know how far I can be pushed until I just simply freak out. I know when to walk away and I find myself thinking about what to say before it comes out of my mouth. I really think it is a big step for me, personally. I used to say things that would hurt peoples feelings and not really think of the affect it would have on people.
I also am proud of myself for standing up for what I believe is right. I used to be so scared of conflict and would avoid it at all costs. I know that if I believe in it, I should stand up for my thoughts and actions. On a day to day basis, I don't see myself as a "changed" person, but as I sit here and type I really see a strong young woman instead of a timid young girl. To say the least, I am proud of myself and wouldn't change a thing about me.
Thursday, March 12, 2015
Do Things Happen for Reasons?
Do you ever believe that sometimes things happen for a reason? It is something my mother has always said to me growing up and well, I've just grown up accepting it. For example, today I took a delivery for Chick-fil-A. It was going to this elderly couple whose niece works for Corporate Chick-fil-A. Her uncle, Billie, is battling terminal cancer and had no idea I was showing up with food and presents for him. It was very touching to me personally and I really felt it touched him in his heart. After leaving, the car next to me had a Chick-fil-A bag on their dash...of all things. Once I arrived at school, the first person I saw on campus was holding a Chick-fil-A cup. While waiting for my other class to start, a girl came up to me and started asking if I read the bible.
This may sound like it doesn't have any connection, but to me it does. Chick-fil-A has changed my life in many ways and right now I feel as if I'm in a crossroads as to where I want my life to go. I am in school to become a teacher and have a little under two years left. I also enjoy working for Chick-fil-A and have had so many AMAZING opportunities arise because of my job.
Personally, I don't know what I believe in...I think something is there but I'm not sure what. Sometimes these "little" things make me question a lot of things that happen on a day to day basis. It is teaching me to become more humble and to accept and embrace these new changes in my life. Yes, I am a worry wart, but I just dream of a better life for myself...wherever that may be.
This may sound like it doesn't have any connection, but to me it does. Chick-fil-A has changed my life in many ways and right now I feel as if I'm in a crossroads as to where I want my life to go. I am in school to become a teacher and have a little under two years left. I also enjoy working for Chick-fil-A and have had so many AMAZING opportunities arise because of my job.
Personally, I don't know what I believe in...I think something is there but I'm not sure what. Sometimes these "little" things make me question a lot of things that happen on a day to day basis. It is teaching me to become more humble and to accept and embrace these new changes in my life. Yes, I am a worry wart, but I just dream of a better life for myself...wherever that may be.
Welcome to my Life
Hi everyone!
My name is Melissa Bowman and this is the beginning of my new blog. I am 21 years old and am finding that my life is really beginning to change. I am not saying I'm old (even though I think I am!) but my life has been a whirlwind lately and I am finding my thoughts keeping me up at night. I believe that by writing it all down it might help me make these new choices, new chances, and new changes. Thanks for reading, I hope you can find some joy in this journey of mine!
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