Tuesday Lately

I decided to do this post as a way to get my mind off of things. Here it goes!

U p d a t i n g
Right now I am trying to update my room. A few months ago I changed the furniture around and got rid of a lot of things. But one thing I did not touch was my closet...oh dear god it's going to be absolute hell in there! I really need the space though, so I am planning on updating that tomorrow hopefully.

R e m i n d i n g
I am reminding myself that I can only tackle one day at a time. I really need to stop worrying less and enjoying the present more. This is hard for me to understand sometimes! Each day is a gift and I need to cherish it.

N e e d i n g 
Hmm...I don't think I technically need it but this weekend is Hallmark's Ornament Debut! I am so excited and have about 4 or 5 ornaments on my list. My local store knows me well so they told me they will place the ones I want aside for me! I need to go over there and drop my list off tomorrow!

W e a r i n g
Well I am laying in bed as I type this so I have on an old baggy t-shirt and some shorts. Ahh, nothing better!

B e i n g
I am being a bit over dramatic and I am trying to get myself in check before I say/do something that will ruin something important in my life. I just need to calm down and accept my life as it is.

Thank you for reading! 

Here are next weeks words:

                                 Completing, Visiting, Repeating, Applauding, Scheduling

Having a hard time

Well hello there.

Lately I have been having some hard times with myself. I just am stuck in a place right now where I will do ANYTHING to grow up...but at the same time I am scared. I know in my previous post I said something similar to this, but I have been working on it. I am trying to do things that make myself happy and I truly have been better about doing that! Which I must say, I am very glad with the focus I have been putting into my own thoughts/feelings.

Anyways, I think the most important thing for me is the fact that I have been with my boyfriend for so long that I am telling myself in my mind I am ready for the next step, but I know he is not. I am trying to be mature about everything and I find myself at times acting like an idiot, to say the least. I say things that a girl in high school would say to her boyfriend of two months, not someone who is ready to move on and get their life started. Perhaps I should try something different to act differently. It's not that I am not a mature person, but I am just trying to accept everything life is throwing at me. I am just stuck and do not know how to go about it. I don't really have anyone to talk to because I don't think they will understand me. I will just keep focusing on myself because that seems to work the best right now. I just need to start acting like the 22 year old girl I (almost) am.